In the beginning, I was utterly frustrated with the yo-yo'ing that has become my life. I realized I didn't have any means to maintain weight for any amount of time. It felt like weight gain was always inevitable and I always gained more than I lost.
I needed to find a sustainable way to live where my weight didn't fluctuate so much nor did it dominate my happiness.
I started off with calorie counting so I could understand portion control. I made 100% of my meals which meant prepping ahead of time and shopping with a list. I didn't allow the trigger foods to be in the house - those being chips, cookies, candy...etc. I knew I couldn't stop at one so in the beginning I had to be super strict.
I kept a food journal where I wrote down everything I ate. It kept me accountable and also pinpointed areas I could improve on.
I slowly incorporated exercise into my life starting with 30 minutes per day and building from there. I was surprised to see once I forced myself to get to the gym, more often than not, I stayed longer than the planned 30 minutes.
My relationship with the scale also changed. I used to avoid stepping on the scale because I was so scared at the number it would tell me. I made it routine to weigh-in so scary factor started to dwindle. It slowly became a tool rather than some evil being trying to sabotage my happiness.
For a while, I made my health my number ONE priority. I realized that all the excuses over the years were only hurting myself.
I took responsibility yet also learned to be kinder to myself and less critical.
Nowadays, it's nice to see that my weight isn't on the forefront of my thoughts anymore. It has slowly taken a back seat now that I get to enjoy other aspects of my life. It's not holding me back. Of course, I keep it in check but I'm less strict with it than I was in the beginning.
Slowly tweaking my plan yet watching the scale worked for me.
Moderation is what saved me. I used to categorize food into bad foods and good foods. I deprived myself of the things I really wanted only to gorge on them after falling off my diet. I'm never on a diet. I treat it more like a checks and balances. If I'm eating more one day, I cut back on other days to keep things in check.
Right now, instead of focusing on the scale, what I really want to do is focus on toning up and getting fit. It'll be nice to see more definition in my arms.
How are you guys doing mentally? Where is your head at?
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