When I read books or watch movies, I hate not knowing the ending.
In my personal life, I tend to play things safe because I am a worrier. A million hypothetical endings pop up in my head whenever a situation presents itself. I always always plan for the absolute worst and hope for the best.
When I refocused my life and set on this journey to heal myself, I put other priorities on hold. I pressed the figurative pause button on certain things in my life.
I am going to be honest with myself and this blog and admit maybe part of the reason I haven't proclaimed, "I'm at goal!" or "I'm going to start maintenance life," is because once that goal is reached....I have to unpause the things I've been putting on the back burner.
In the past, I used to daydream about when I lost weight...x, y and z would happen. Now that I'm so close to goal weight (fyi I have no set # in mind), I realize I'm slightly scared about it.
This Lent (I'm not Catholic), I've decided to give up procrastinating. This is definitely easier said than done. I have to take certain risks. If I don't take action and deal with other things outside of weight-loss, nothing is ever going to change.
On one of my runs this weekend, I realized I'm ready to take the next step.
It was scary taking the first step trying to lose weight not knowing if I would ever succeed. I've forgotten how scared I was in the beginning.
I realize that fear is similar to where I am now. I'm scared to move forward with other things in my life.
My boyfriend said it best though, "If you don't try, you'll never know."
Wish me luck on new endeavors! xoxo
8 comments:
Good Luck girl! I know you can do it!
There is NO DOUBT in my mind you got this. You inspired me in more ways than one and I think, how awesome is it to have someone who knows EXACTLY what I feel. You are that person Grace baby! YOU GOT THIS!!!
Yay! Believe me - the BF is like that, "If new things happen, we may all die!!" He'd rather stay in a job that makes him unhappy because the next one might be worse. Same for flats, cars, friendships (relationships? Hope not!). I am more like, "Let's try this, and if it sucks at least we have a new story to tell at parties." (I still prepare for, like, everything.)
Good luck!!! You're so strong and smart,I know you'll have no problems with it! So now my curiousity is peaked and I'm dying to know what this new endeavor is!
I loved reading this post - yep, it's tough to take risks but the rewards could be great!!
Good luck! I'm sure you will attack this with the same determination you approach weight loss and exercise!!
I really liked this post Grace. I know you'll do well. (and wow, your boyfriend sounds like a wise man!) Have a wonderful Tuesday.
Good post. I think the reason why so many people can't keep excess weight off is that it is easier to deal with losing and gaining weight than it is to deal with all the stuff we put on the back burner. Many of us are more scared of dealing with everything else (being a responsible adult, self empowerment, career, relationships, etc.) so we stick to putting all our thought towards something like weight- which, in all honesty, IS something that we can control.
I'm curious the sorts of things that you have had on the back burner.
Remember how strong you are and remember that even if some people don't believe in you, there are MANY out there who DO love and support you. It's ok to be scared, and it's ok to have panicky moments of terror. Each of us has a place somewhere. It's just tricky and confusing getting there sometimes.
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